Let go to enjoy the ride!

For many years I have been following my ‘spiritual’ path, always looking for the meaning in everything inside and outside of myself. It has kept me very busy and I have learnt much about myself and the world in general. It has kept me company when I have been alone, like a companion who has so much in common with you and who cares about you. It has become a comfort!

However, that ‘comfort’ had also become a drag. So much time spent ‘looking’ that at times I missed such beautiful experiences that were with me right there and then. It had become another form of attachment, almost like a dark cloud hanging over me. Such a heaviness I carried, believing it to be part of the journey, part of the learnng experience. I became heavy, my conversations became heavy… I thought that this was how it should be on this spiritual path.

But today, lying in my glorious garden in the morning sun and listening to the birds and a family member singing in the bathroom, I realised that I need to let go of all the looking and the lessons. I need to let go of the heaviness and meanings.

After all, Life is just… life. It is meant to be lived, not sought. And so today, I have let go so that I can indeed enjoy the ride — the ride that this life actually is — fun, exhilerating and full of wonderful moments. Perfect!

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Intuitive Impulse

Driving along toward a certain destination, there is a sudden impulse to take the next left turn. No signs prompting, no clear reason ‘why’, just intuition screaming, “turn left now!”. If I resist, it will continue to nag me until I turn back, or until another opportunity arises that will lead me to that same place. Call it fate or destiny. Call it spiritual guidance. Call it insanity. To control it is futile. All roads lead to the same place. It’s inevitable.

Whether I choose to turn now or later, in this life or the next, there is something that my eyes need to see, my ears need to hear, my heart needs to feel. That turn beckons and it won’t let me go until I surrender to it completely, without bargaining conditions, without negotiation, without my ego getting in the way of its message.

Even though it takes me off my planned route, even though it makes no sense to my head or even to my heart, my gut rules. Instincts and intuition force my hands to shift the steering wheel leftward. I find myself on an unknown road leading who-knows-where. It’s quaint. It’s pretty. I still don’t know why I am there. I go as far as the road takes me, until gut says to turn back. About a mile. Nothing all that eventful happens. Maybe the detour just places me in the right space and time at some future point elsewhere. This is something we cannot even guess at sensibly.

Trusting the intuitive impulse is the point. It doesn’t have to make sense to our logic. Our brains cannot understand the incomprehensible Grand Scheme of Things. As individual human beings, it is simply our duty to trust our instincts, to go with the flow, to follow the intuitive impulses that guide us as if by some cosmic awareness our human mind is not privied to in its entirety.

Forget the sat navs and the gps systems. Without the gadgets, without support systems, we all only have one thing to rely on. Our own inner intuitive impulse. Trust it.

Intuitive Impulse © March 19, 2011 | Annie Zalezsak

Becoming a Modern Nomad

I am a restless soul. Every moment of every day of my life must count for something, mean something, or I get very restless. I need to be where I am needed most; where I am nourished most. It’s a great big world out there. Why settle in one spot, decay and rot, in the name of putting down roots? We’re not trees. Humans have legs that are made for walking.

It took me many, many years to accept my nomadic self. The excuse to move has always been for work experience, a career move, more affordable cost of living. The truth is, my feet itch, my spirit yearns for renewal of Self, of fresh eyes, new perspectives, greater awareness, expanded possibilities. The traditional: own a home, have a family, get the latest devices everyone else has, while ‘nice’, has never been a motivation for me. In fact, once I acquire a certain amount of material possessions, there is a point at which it feels so burdensome, I need to get rid of it entirely. This is true to some degree of places I live, and even people (if they are stagnant in their own lives).

I used to be hard on myself about this. Like, it’s wrong. Like, I should be settled and own a home at my age. I should stick with my job because who’s going to give me another when fresh blood is so bountiful? But, this is my life, and I’m going to do it my way, and the consequences may not actually be so bad from my point of view. To some, the worst thing in the world may be to have nothing. But imagine the freedom!

The tribal way was nomadic. If a place no longer served, the community got up and shifted elsewhere. At a time when there were no borders, where instincts and intuition were followed, when shamans led and the people trusted, this is the innate natural behaviour of the human being on earth. Modern society is so fixated on ownership, on insurance, on legal boundaries – all oppressive fear-inducing tactics – resulting in depression, stuckness, and suicide (of spirit, if not body). For me, this kind of life is something I no longer accept.

It wasn’t until I fully accepted the possibility that I could become homeless, penniless, jobless and wind up with nothing – that I could begin to let go of all my possessions to free myself entirely of their responsibility, so I could be true to the wandering spirit that I am and live as a modern nomad. It is getting to a place of Fearlessness of the Unknown.

As I shed the excess baggage I’ve accumulated, I remain open to any and all possibilities that come my way. Open to learning, being, becoming, evolving.

Is there any other way to live? For me, this is the best way to live!

Becoming a Modern Nomad © March 16, 2011 | Annie Zalezsak

New Beginnings

The Clarity Tribe has been on a Journey of ever-growing magnitude. It began on an airplane to Faro. It intensified throughout a week in Praia da Rocha. It now continues to unfold in Portugal and the United Kingdom.

We have truly left behind past pathways and venture now into new paradigms.

Come join us.

Are You New Here?

As I was sitting here contemplating what to write, I saw  “Are you new here?” written in the help box for those new to blogging. It got me thinking about life…

Sometimes I feel as though I have been around forever. I feel as though I know so much, that I have experienced and learnt so very much. Yet, as time goes on, I realise that I know so little and that perhaps I will never know the truth of everything. Maybe I don’t need to, and that is fine. Many times when I come across difficult situations, times when I have felt out of my depth, I do feel as though I ‘am new here’. Never having had the experience and therefore never having had to find a solution to it, it has been quite unsettling.

But, in the far reaches of my being, in that place where peace and wisdom dwells, I am able to find the truth in all things. In this place it doesn’t matter if I am new here. In this place where the ALL THAT IS is, I feel as old as time itself.

If I’m following you and you are following me… where are we headed?

I made this comment earlier today on Linkedin and it got me really thinking about the question.  I had an image of someone leading a march and right at the back others were joining in. Not because they knew what was going on but because they were either caught up in the excitement of it or just because they were curious!

So, I asked myself… do I know where I am going? Have I got caught up in the excitement? or am I just being curious?

I wonder…

Welcome to Clarity Tribe!

This is a brand new blog that aims to bring you moments of clarity from a special ‘tribe’ of friends. This tribe is on a conscious spiritual journey. We seek to learn, understand and grow. We share insights and learn through each other’s experiences. We hope to inspire and unite people everywhere to make this world a better place: a healed world, where peace and love is the underlying motivation to all the things we do, and the basis of who we are.