For many years I have been following my ‘spiritual’ path, always looking for the meaning in everything inside and outside of myself. It has kept me very busy and I have learnt much about myself and the world in general. It has kept me company when I have been alone, like a companion who has so much in common with you and who cares about you. It has become a comfort!
However, that ‘comfort’ had also become a drag. So much time spent ‘looking’ that at times I missed such beautiful experiences that were with me right there and then. It had become another form of attachment, almost like a dark cloud hanging over me. Such a heaviness I carried, believing it to be part of the journey, part of the learnng experience. I became heavy, my conversations became heavy… I thought that this was how it should be on this spiritual path.
But today, lying in my glorious garden in the morning sun and listening to the birds and a family member singing in the bathroom, I realised that I need to let go of all the looking and the lessons. I need to let go of the heaviness and meanings.
After all, Life is just… life. It is meant to be lived, not sought. And so today, I have let go so that I can indeed enjoy the ride — the ride that this life actually is — fun, exhilerating and full of wonderful moments. Perfect!